I found this letter to Life I wrote back in June/July. These were intense months, energetically speaking. Perhaps you felt the discomfort of growth too.
I hope these words can serve as a comfort – that often when we are moving through heaviness, through discomfort, when it feels like we’ve taken 20 steps backward, it’s actually you moving forward, growing, expanding, becoming.
I haven’t been writing too much for the blog, aside from astrology. I hope to change that. I can sometimes forget just how much I love writing to you.
As always, I am sending you so much love.
I felt myself breaking through, I felt the energies of a new way of being, a new level of consciousness. I felt truth and confidence and trust deeper and stronger than I ever had before…
And then it felt like I took 20 steps backward.
I didn’t see it straight away. But now I see it so clearly.
Life, you knew I was ready to step forward, you felt it as deeply as I did, in fact – you’ve been waiting for me to feel it.
You showed me all that in was in the way so I could move through it and onto the other side.
You showed me all that I needed to let go of to free the space to receive all that you were giving me. You showed me what heaviness was holding me down so I could float float float into higher levels of consciousness, higher frequencies of energy, higher connection with my Soul.
I see it now. And I thank you.
I see it now. Opportunities. Walk-ways. What I felt was and is real – a new way of being, a new depth of feeling, receiving, and serving, you’re bringing it to me and I’m clearing the space to receive it. You’re bringing it to me and I’m transforming my energy to match it.
My prayer for myself and for all those around me is that we see these difficulties, these fears, these painful emotions and heavy interactions as opportunities. That we can see them as a reminder that we are ready to be more, that we are more, that we’re ready to step forward, to move to a whole nother level of depth in life.
My prayer for myself and for all those around me is that we can see these times as a message from the Universe that we are worth more, that we are made for more, that it’s time to let go. That we are fucking amazing and what we are holding onto, well, isn’t, and it simply doesn’t fit in our lives.
My prayer for myself and all those around me is that we step out of the ego comfort of anger, fear, sadness, or whatever our go to reactive state is, and that we sit in discomfort of truth, that we sit in the discomfort of questioning ourselves, that we sit in the discomfort of change and growth.
It isn’t easy. It so isn’t easy. But I don’t think there is any other way. I don’t think we can be aware of cycles of pain and hurt and fear and anger and watch them replay throughout our lives… I think that’s even harder.
When you are ready to sink deeper into life, experience more, feel more, remember more, share more, grow more, impact more – these heavy stages will often meet you where you are.
And I hope that they do, you remember that this is just Life responding to how ready you are, and is showing you exactly how to move forward. To move through. To move through and allow yourself to be transformed in the process. To move through consciously, intentionally and with trust that you are stepping into a new life on the other side, the new life that you know in your heart was made for you.